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Mortal Kombat: Dismemberment? Okay. Skin? Bad.

I love the Mortal Kombat series. I have loved it since the very beginning, tried to enjoy the series as much as I could during the 3D days and then continued to love it again once the complete overhaul that was Mortal Kombat (technically MK9) on the 360 and PS3.

But since the past game Mortal Kombat X and now with the reveals of the upcoming Mortal Kombat 11, I’ve been noticing something that I don’t quite like, nor do I understand. It’s not a deal breaker necessarily, as when it comes to the game, I’m more concerned about the mechanics and the gore, because that’s what the game is supposed to be, but there’s one thing that they’ve changed recently that seems way too coinciding with the current political climate.

So look, I’m just going to say it flat out. I am 100% in favor of what Mortal Kombat used to have with specifically its female cast. Yes, I’m talking about the overly sexual outfits.

I should’ve noticed this change right away when for the first time EVER, Mileena’s outfit was very conservative. Anyone who’s played the series before the MK9 comeback knows that Mileena has always been the sex symbol of the franchise, which is pretty ironic given she has the ugliest face in the game, aside from Baraka.

But in MKX, she shows so little skin in comparison to every game before that, in retrospect it’s shocking I didn’t really pay attention to it when I first played the series. She no longer has the one-piece “ninja” outfit that has several other characters wearing similar if not the same gear with a different color palette. Those girls included Kitana, Jade, Frost, Khameleon, Tanya and even Skarlet, who at one point was a glitched red colorization before becoming a real character in the series.

And now in the past game and the soon to be released MK11, all of these girls have been changed significantly to alter their outfits in order to show less skin, while several male characters have largely remained the same. Hell, the new male character Geras? Shirtless.

Now I’m not going to sit here and tell you that the outfits that we’ve seen characters like Jade, Sonya and other female characters aren’t cool, I will never do that. But why all of a sudden are outfits that are 10, 20, some almost 25 years old now, being completely erased? In a genre that sees characters have several different outfits, why does it appear that the ones that your average third-wave feminist would immediately scream at, they’re the only outfits truly affected?

I mean take a look at Skarlet for example, hence why she’s the cover image for this article. This is what she first looked like in the 2011 redesign. Is it over-the-top? Sure, but this is Mortal fucking Kombat we’re talking about here. This isn’t a “realistic” game, nor is it a realistic world. But now, in MK11? She looks like she’s preparing for a winter storm, not a fight. And another thing, REALLY?! YOU GAVE HER A PIXIE CUT AND YOU THOUGHT THAT LOOKED GOOD?! SHE LOOKS TERRIBLE!!! Skarlet looks more masculine than feminine now, are we seriously going to start playing that game?

I’m not saying every character needs to be sexy, don’t get the wrong idea here. But why are characters that have always been sexy suddenly not sexy? Is the solution not to make new characters that aren’t automatically fan service characters? Isn’t that what D’Vorah is? Cassie Cage and Jacqui Briggs? You are laying down a foundation of new characters, so if you want to make characters who aren’t revealing 75%+ of their skin, you can do that. But don’t erase the characters you had, Skarlet was fine as a sexy, powerful assassin, same with Kitana, Jade and especially Mileena, who I’m pretty sure at this point got killed off in MKX so they could show to the world they’ve “changed”, by taking out the most sexualized woman they had.

So this all goes back to the leftist, feminist approach of we can’t sexualize women in video games. So once again I will say it, why the fuck not?! This isn’t a realistic, present day game, this is a game that features several different realms with ridiculously over-the-top fantasy setting characters, such as an undead ninja, a man who controls ice, a sorcerer who takes people’s souls, several characters with more than two arms, a minotaur, a man with bionic arms, a motherfucking dragon, you get the idea, right?

This isn’t real, who are you to say that this world doesn’t have a different cultural and societal approach? How do you know wearing clothes akin to a one-piece swimsuit isn’t normal battle attire for women in that world? How do you know that women don’t normally wear more revealing clothing because perhaps their world is hotter than ours normally is, or hell, maybe that’s just their fucking choice? That’s my favorite counter argument, how do you know that this world wouldn’t be one that’s different from ours, with characters who think different than we do? Why does everything today have to be 100% reminiscent of our present day?

I don’t want to play something 100% realistic, that’s boring as shit, I want to play a game where I’m playing as ridiculous characters, doing ridiculous fighting moves and pulling off ridiculous kills like the fatalities have always done, ramping it up each and every installment.

I want these characters to be over-the-top in every way. I want 9-foot tall giants with four arms who can rip a normal person’s limb off with ease. I want shirtless karate legends with abs on top of abs pulling off absurd fighting moves that even Jean Claude van Damme couldn’t even pull off. I want to see scantily clad women who look like strippers, but can kick anyone’s ass at the drop of a hat, in the same way I want to see women who are also dressed conservatively and can pull off the same thing. Or maybe they can do other things like they’re mages/sorceresses, they’re a medieval looking knight with a giant Claymore sword, anything that can make sense of things.

But a girl who just fights with a Sai and martial arts, like Mileena? There’s no reason for her to cover up as much as she can, she needs the extra speed and agility, to be able to move faster and be able to make that critical shot. It’s harder to do that when you have more clothing pulling on you. I’m not saying she HAS to fight in a thong, but why can’t she? Because it could offend women? Well the game for almost 30 years has gone strong being a game that has a primary demographic of men aged 13-35, so why change now?

Can we stop making changes to please everyone? Because we never can. Make the game that suits your primary demographic first, that’s where the money is. And for fuck’s sake, Netherrealm, you have been making a series of fighting games that politicians have always been against because of the violence, why are you even bothering changing anything at this point? Nothing you do will change what you are now with this series.

Want to make a game for everyone? Start a new franchise. Oh that’s a risk and you might lose money doing so? Then what are you doing right now by changing so much about the characters? Isn’t that a risk to the fanbase you’ve collected for decades now? Ask EA, Bethesda and Blizzard, they’ll tell you a few stories.

Once again, I’m not saying every character has to be sexualized. But in a world where limbs are lying everywhere and there’s more blood than an Olympic swimming pool can hold, how ridiculous is a couple of girls with DDs in a skimpy one-piece?

The Evolution Of My Bisexuality

It’s funny how things work sometimes. I was bored on Sunday night and I was looking through some of my old articles, because I had the thought that I hadn’t written a blog post aside from the anime weeklies in quite some time. Now I’ve been okay with this, as the transition back to YouTube has been successful thus far, I’ve been able to keep a decent flow of content coming. But my opinions really started flowing here on the blog, so once in a while I’d like to keep things running here.

So as I was browsing my old content, I came across this lovely article I wrote a full year ago (April 14th, 2017). It was an article that was long overdue for me in writing, being able to get something that at the time was new to me, something I wasn’t openly talking about so much. And that’d be my recent transition from a heterosexual male to a bisexual male.

If you’re curious about the original article, you can read it here.

A year later, if I was to tell you a lot changed, I’d be lying. My relationship has not changed one bit since writing that article. I’m still with my girlfriend and we’ve now reached 10 years together, a milestone that’s only serving to make my parents ask me more often when my girlfriend and I are getting married and having children, in which case I tune out, as neither are really in my peripheral vision at the moment and may never will. My 100% assurity of the fact that I do indeed have a sexual interest in the same-sex is definitely there and I know now that it will not fade away like it’s some phase. I am 100% bisexual through and through, it just appears that with my current life trajectory that I will never experience the “other side”.

This is where the majority of this post will be about. I’ve already told my story leading up to the moments where I accepted the evolution of my sexual interests. Now, it’s time to explore the realities of things, the fact that there are multiple reasons why I likely won’t ever see that other side of the sexual market, so to speak.

I’ve said it in the previous article on this topic and it still hasn’t changed much since then. I mentioned in that post that I know no one in real life who is male and I have a sexual attraction to. Though I will admit it’s easy to understand how this is the case. Given the body type and age range I appear to have that sexual interest in when it comes to men, I’m not exactly in the prime location to meet and hang around these kinds of guys. For starters, the guys I tend to have an interest in are very athletic (shocking, I know…) and while I do play recreational co-ed sports, I end up finding attractive girls in say a soccer league, whereas there aren’t really guys that grab my attention at all. I’m not a gym guy, so there’s another major location out of the way. I’ve tried the whole gym experience, I just think that for me, exercise is something I’d rather do either alone, or among friends. Lastly, I am 100% not into the club scene, so that is a major, MAJOR handicap I’m giving myself.

The other and more obvious problem I will inevitably have when it comes to exploring my bisexuality is the age gap that is ever-growing between me and the guys I appear to be into. As of right now, as a guy new to his 30s this year, the number of guys that look the way I’m attracted to begin to be less and less interested in me, based on my age. I would hazard a guess that the top echelon of guys I’m interested in right now fall into the 18-30 range and obviously as I get older, the odds of someone of that age range being interested in me continues to fall.

But most of all, and this is where I get most critical of myself, is just that I’m honestly not attractive enough to grab the attention of any of these guys that I’m interested in. I’m not gonna sit here and tell you I’m an ugly fuck, but I know that at best, I’m average and that’s about it. Admittedly, it’s been this acceptance that’s got me fired up about trying to take better care of my body. I’m hoping once I’m have my own living space again (and especially fridge space, because where I am right now, there’s literally none), I’ll eat better, exercise far more, all that jazz in the hopes of at the very least cutting the winter belly fat I’ve built up from being mostly indoors being lazy. After that, I can work on maybe putting some actual muscle on my body for the first time ever, as I’ve always been a thin guy.

At the very least, the past few years have really given me a chance to actually give an iota of shit about how I look. I’m certainly more aware of things like how my hair looks at any given moment, the kind of clothes I’m wearing for a certain occasion (normally I’d just wear an Iron Maiden t-shirt and jeans to everything), hell I’ve become a picky son of a bitch when it comes to underwear nowadays. And yes, that includes deciding when to wear boxers, or go all the way down to briefs. Hell, here’s another old article if you wanna check that out, click here, this one being a two-year old classic on another transition I went through, from plain ol’ boxers, to much more vibrant underwear.

A year ago, I made a post describing my initial journey into this newfound land I had no idea was as enticing as it was. A year later, I wouldn’t say a whole lot has changed since then. In terms of anime art, my preferences haven’t expanded at all, it’s pretty much the same stuff I’m paying attention to. In terms of real guys, I’ve certainly found more images online that have piqued my interest, but like I said earlier, finding such guys in real life has not been as easy.

I’m pretty much aware at this point that the kind of guys I’d be interested in are simply too high a bar for me to reach. I’ve said this to friends before, but I think this is the first time I’m saying this on the blog: I think we are all not just bisexual, but pansexual. Here’s the catch. Let’s say you’re an average run-of-the-mill, heterosexual guy. You’ve got an endless supply of girls to choose from, but guys? Not so much. You may think you have zero interest, but let’s be honest, if you had zero interest, you’d struggle to watch porn where you’re looking at a guy’s junk and ass.

So let’s take me for example. On the classic 1-10 scale, I personally view myself as a 5 and that might be generous given my winter belly fat now. From a heterosexual point of view, I’d reckon that I’d have an interest into girls that range from a 4 and up. Though like most people, when it comes to 4s, 5s and 6s, they have to fall into certain parameters. In my case, yes, it does have to do with the body type, race, the kind of clothes they wear, the hairstyle they have, things like that.

Now let’s take guys for a spin. If I was to guess the number for a guy to be considered “attractive” to my eyes, I think at the very least, they’d have to be an 8. And there’s that catch I was talking about earlier. If I’m into guys who are minimum an 8/10 and yet I’m a 5/10, that severely limits my options, doesn’t it? I mean if I was an 8, would I be interested in a 5, when I could just as easily have anything above a 7? It’s tough to say, but I have to assume that most people that high would not go that far down the range for a little tail. Thus my feelings on how it’s very likely I won’t ever experience that “other side”. Hell, this would even go for the transgender side of things, where that number is even higher, as I can count the number of transgender folk I have come across online that I would absolutely be interested in a night of fun with, I can count them on one hand.

I believe we all have an interest in every kind of person out there, hell even aliens we don’t even know exist. The only catch is that for some of these people, the number is unobtainable. There’s a heterosexual guy who’d be into having sex with a guy, but he’s never going to meet a 10/10 guy who’d be interested in him, hell that number may even be an 11, a level of attractiveness that can only be reached through fiction like anime, or through technology that we just don’t have yet. It’s how I started after all, I started finding attractive anime guys, where the levels range above 10, some I could say are in the 20s. And yes, I’m aware of how much sense this doesn’t make.

The difference is that some of us are able to slowly lower that bar, in the way that I started with anime guys and eventually opened up to the idea of something more than that, something real, something obtainable. I may not ever be able to touch that (both figuratively and certainly literally…), but I’ve opened up to the possibilities, and have accepted that there is more out there than just abiding by the status quo.

We’re not held down by what we consider to be traditional. We also don’t need to follow in the usual steps of people who are making that transition into being something other than your standard heterosexual human being. You don’t have to be flamboyant, you don’t have to be butch. You don’t have to like certain colours, hell you don’t even have to talk about wanting to suck a dick or eat some pussy. I’ve said it before, but I don’t think your sexuality really has much bearing on the kind of person you are. So don’t let your sexuality define what you have to be, how you dress, how you speak, how you act. Just be you, whatever “you” is.

And if that you also happens to think that the possibility of Ganondorf from the Zelda series being attractive as a younger, smaller male is a thing, then go for it! I know I did…

[NSFW] Fantasies Changing With The Times

From the moment puberty hits, we as young boys and girls start to fantasize about the kinds of people that we have some sort of sexual interest in. Some of us think about sex a lot, some of us think about sex a little, some of us think about sex with boys, some of us think about sex with girls, some of us think about sex with both. Hell, there’s so many intricate things that define our own sexual fantasies. We’ve got things like gender, race, age, body type, specific hair/eye colours, specific hairstyles, specific clothing whether underwear, swimwear or basic clothing. There are so many things about people that we can use to set up our perfect sexual fantasies and we do so as we begin to nail down our sexual preferences throughout our teen years.

However, as we get older and older, in what I imagine is almost all cases, our fantasies begin to change, the type of people we’re into changes, the range generally expands, or in some rare cases, it gets really specific. My case is no different, in the past five years especially, my range of people that I’ve become sexually attracted to has evolved so much more than what it was before those past five years. So I thought this would be an interesting topic to bring up, as I’m still on the high of unlocking a completely new world in my own head and I’m sure for many, this is the kind of stuff that few people will talk about and most will stay quiet about. So I hope this helps a few people be okay with some of the more “embarrassing” changes in their lives.

So to start off, I figured I would go from the very beginning and work my way to where I’ve ended up today.

I can safely say that the first years of my life where I really started looking at girls as more than just this mysterious other kind of people that weren’t boys, it would’ve been in Grade 7 while I was 12 and 13 years old. I think the grade before I had it in my head that something was changing inside of me, but it wasn’t until Grade 7 where I truly understood what exactly was going on and what specifically it was that was grabbing my attention. At the time I was in elementary school in a small country town. There were only two classes per grade, classes were about 20-25 people, so there wasn’t a whole lot for me to check out in my early stages, while many who grew up in the city had A LOT more to choose from.

There was one specific girl that really kickstarted my interest in girls and a type of girl that has remained a key interest of mine all the way through my life thus far. I’ve always been into smaller girls, as in short girls, slender, not too much in the chest (I’ve never really been big into large breasts, pun completely intended) and this one girl in my Grade 7 class was the one who cemented that forever in my brain. I still vividly remember to this day how she looked in gym class, she always wore a red t-shirt and black shorts, neither were all that tight, unlike what pretty much every girl wears today from the day they’re born. I think she became a huge part of my preferences in girls because she was the first one I was interested in and she wasn’t overwhelmingly sexy, she was pretty, cute, rather than being hot and sexy. I’d like to think that’s a major reason as to why I tend to divert my attention to more cute and pretty girls, rather than the kind of girls that every guy rants about to his friends about how “smoking hot she is, dude!” and stuff like that.

The following year is when I found my second love. Up until the age of 14, I was a country boy who went to school with other country kids and everyone pretty much operated under what we perceive as “normality”. As far as I could tell, no one was homosexual, I could count on one hand how many non-white kids were in my school, things like that. But the most important thing was that every boy acted as a boy should, every girl acted as a girl should. There weren’t any effeminate boys, there weren’t any tomboyish girls. In Grade 8 however, I had moved to a larger town, now there were five classes in my grade alone and I was seeing new kinds of girls. Because in my country elementary school there was a level playing field, I had never seen the archetypal “mean girls” kind of girls, y’know the blonde bombshells who hang around the jocks, they’re always wearing tight pants and able to do the splits in gym class.

But the biggest revelation to me was that of tomboys, a kind of girl I had never considered before. There were two specific cases where I got opened up to this new “breed” of young girls my brain never conceived of.

The first was when I got dragged to someone’s house by my mother because it was after a baseball game I played and she needed to go somewhere to get something, I can’t remember those details. But I got lucky, this woman had a daughter, a year younger than me. At first glance she looked like a normal girl, she had long brown hair in a long, braided ponytail, she had a white t-shirt and pink shorts on, she looked like a regular girl. But she got excited seeing me come in, like a new friend arriving and she took me into her room. I thought I was walking into a pink, stuffed animal ridden situation, nope! Rock band posters, specifically AC/DC and Motley Crue are the two I can remember seeing and instead of showing me something cute and silly, like her endless parade of Barbie dolls, we played PlayStation games together! As a 14 year-old country boy, the idea of a girl who loved rock music and played video games was an alien thing to me! I have few regrets, re-connecting with her is something I should’ve done. I cannot remember her name, which drives me crazy considering how much I remember about that day.

The second was a girl in my Grade 8 middle school. She wasn’t in my class, I wish she had been, I would’ve loved to pick her brain more. We always would see each other at recess though. A lot of kids will remember the ol’ classic game of throwing a tennis ball at the wall and that was pretty much every recess for me, I always loved playing that. So did she and at first she seemed relatively normal as well, but by the time summer rolled around, she changed a ton. Most girls walked around in short shorts, pink tops, showing off their cleavage, all that jazz, this girl was so different. She left on vacation for a week and when she came back, she was completely different looking. She had cut her hair much shorter, she was tanned a bit and it was the first time I’d seen her in a top that didn’t cover her entire top half. She had abs! My brain exploded, now I had two completely new images of what girls can look like or be like, rather than the stereotypical normal forms I was pre-disposed to before.

My high school years pretty much shaped out the rest of my interests. Once I really hit 16, I stepped away from just liking smaller white girls that my country boy days stuck with and really started opening up to others I never really had the opportunity to see in person. While I still wasn’t into girls with massive breasts, I was at least taking an interest in those around the middle of the pack in terms of bust size. But the biggest change came in the additions of a second race of girls that I took a real interest into, which today is actually my number one favourite race in terms of popping out drop dead gorgeous women, that being Asian girls.

There wasn’t specifically a single girl that did it for me, though I did end up dating a Chinese girl for four months, where I certainly had the chance to spend time with an Asian girl and really get a good look at just how goddamn beautiful they are. In reality, it was just the sudden influx of them that I saw in high school and also in my many places of work. To this day, I can’t off the top of my head think of any Asian girl that I’ve come to know on a name-to-name basis that I wouldn’t consider attractive.

The other love I discovered during high school, was just how gorgeous natural redhead girls are, especially coupled with freckles. To this day, it’s weird to me how people generally bully “ginger” boys and girls because of how they look. Now I don’t have any say on the looks of boys of that ilk, but I don’t know what people see wrong with girls of this type, because just like Asian girls, I’m hard-pressed to think of any natural red-haired girls, including freckle-laden girls that I knew on a name-to-name basis that weren’t drop dead gorgeous. Who knows, maybe it’s just me, but yeah, I never understood why people thought differently of them. Unlike Asian girls though, I never got the chance to date a natural redhead. I certainly tried a few times, but nothing ever came to fruition.

So by the time I exited college and really began my years in my 20s, I had a pretty solid foundation and setup when it came to girls I was into. I figured this would be where I stayed for the rest of my life, maybe a slight deviation here and there, but nothing too major.

So as a recap, this was my interests heading into my early to mid-20s:

  1. Smaller girls, both in height and bust size
  2. Tomboys, whether more sporty girls or gamer girls
  3. Asian girls
  4. Redheads

In the past five years, though really in the last year and change especially, my spectrum of people I’m sexually interested in has changed drastically. Though maybe changed isn’t the right word, because the four mains I listed earlier hasn’t changed at all, they’re all still there and at the top of the list. I think it’s more accurate to say my sexual interests in terms of the kinds of people I fantasize about has expanded dramatically.

So in order, here’s all the major additions to my list over the past five years:

#1 – Goth/Punk/Emo Girls

This is probably the one case that I think was more because I didn’t see many of them in my younger years, because generally speaking these kinds of girls already follow at least one category I’m into, that being tomboys. Obviously not every girl that follows the punk/metal lifestyle is necessarily a tomboy, but I would say a good chunk of them associate with that kind of girl, as most girls are “expected” to follow the usual lifestyle of liking hot boys, pop music and dancing, rather than music that is very hard, extreme and in some ways violent.

I think what really drew me to them more is the colours, whether it’s their hair, clothes, whatever they use to define themselves. A lot of it is also my love for anime crossing over, as a lot of these girls have crazy coloured hair, unique outfits, stuff that the average anime girl portrays in their world. But most of all, it’s much like tomboys, the idea that there’s an extremely attractive girl in front of me AND she loves metal music, video games, anime, that kind of stuff? I’m in!

#2 – Dark-skinned Girls

This isn’t specific to black women necessarily, but I can say with a straight face that throughout high school and college, I had zero interest in black women, simply on the basis that I didn’t find any of them attractive. Perhaps it was something in my head that needed time to evolve, or maybe I just didn’t know any truly attractive black women up until recently, but in the past five years, I have completely changed on this front. From 13 to my mid-20s, it was either white or Asian and nothing else. Now I’m a lot more open to all other non-white races, whether we’re talking black woman, Hispanic women, Arabic women, pretty much every race out there, I’m open to a lot more now, large in thanks to me being attracted to essentially the darkest colour of skin. Some more than others, but I’m no longer in the state of mind where I would say to myself “Ehhh, I don’t think girls from India are that hot…”, I’m now in a state of mind where a girl from any race is more than capable of being hot.

I’m not really sure how this started, at least in terms of a specific person I knew. I think it was just from looking at various pictures of girls over time and I started to find more and more girls that were just as hot as white girls I liked, the only difference was their skin colour. And as my mind opened up more and more, I eventually came to the intelligent and correct conclusion that it’s just a different colour, the body is still the same. A hot girl is still a hot girl, it doesn’t matter what colour she is.

I also don’t think I’m allowed to say a specific race of girls aren’t hot anymore when I find the Asari from Mass Effect to be the hottest race ever.

#3 – “Bigger” Girls

When I say bigger, I mean bigger in terms of their bust size and their butts, I don’t mean in terms of weight, you can call me a misogynist or whatever you like, I don’t really care. Like I said earlier, in my younger years I wasn’t too interested in girls who the average guy thought was the sexiest thing ever, that being girls with big boobs, big butts, the kind of girl we associate with models and especially porn stars. I think originally, it was large (pun intended) due to me just being attracted to smaller girls in every sense, as my main interests being tomboys, Asians and redheads, we associate those three types of girls as having more smaller frames, including smaller breasts and smaller butts.

There really wasn’t a specific person that turned me over on these kinds of girls, I think it was just a matter of a constant exposure to them and my brain eventually starting to relax on the issue. As I’ve gotten older, I’ve become less and less picky about things, so I imagine this is one of those many things that I got a bit lax on. At this current juncture, I think it’s pretty safe to say that these girls were never not attractive, I just chose not to look in their direction for quite some time. Because at this very moment, just looking at Jessica Nigri in her sexy Tracer cosplay (left girl in the picture above), I don’t have a clue why I wasn’t into a girl who looked like that when I was 18 years old. I kind of what to smack 18 year-old me right now for that.

#4 – “Extremely Fit” Girls

In my head already, a “healthy” girl is extremely attractive. But it’s taken quite some time to lean further in the category of girls that are very fit, specifically girls that still are slender in body type, but instead of just being your typical girl having nice boobs and a nice butt, these girls also have abs and a defined muscular form. Now I don’t lean too far in this category, there is a point where it becomes too much. I think when these girls have giant arms and I can see the veins in their abs, that’s a pretty big turn off. But a girl who’s pretty much just got a bit of a six-pack along with the kind of female body I’m already into? I’m more than into that now.

You’re probably reading this and thinking “Hey wait…wasn’t one of the girls that got you into tomboys have abs?” and you’d be correct. The thing is though, she was really the only girl I saw from then until my mid-20s who displayed that. In the last five years, the fitness craze has skyrocketed with things like Crossfit becoming super popular. So it was less of an “I wasn’t interested.” kind of situation and more of an “I haven’t seen many of them.” kind of thing.

#5 – Older Women

This is easily the most natural conversion that the majority of us will experience as we get older ourselves. Obviously as you age, you almost always are attracted to those who are the same age as you, so it’s only natural you’d enjoy women in their 20s and 30s as you age into your 20s and 30s. As I was a young college student, I never would’ve considered a woman in her early 30s to be attractive, she was so many years older than me! Now I’m 29, a year away from hitting 30 myself, now all of a sudden I have no problem thinking about having sexual relations with a woman who’s say 35. I’m now far more open to women older than me, because I’m getting to that age where there are women who look the exact same in body type and how old they actually look and yet one could be 24 and one could be 36.

The reasoning behind this is literally just a matter of me being older, like I just mention earlier. I’m no longer 18 years old, a woman 10+ older than me back then is now the same age or just a couple years older than me today. Now I’m still in the perspective that I’d be hard-pressed to be attracted to women over the age of 40, but that will only change as I age more and more.

#6 – Males

This has been the last addition to my expanding interests and tastes, though this one comes with a bit of an exception to it. If you’ve read my article about my newfound bisexuality, “The Curious Case of My Bisexuality” (click here if you haven’t!), you know that my desire for men is a bit different than pretty much everyone. Unlike essentially anyone who’s attracted to men, I’ve yet to find a male in real-life that I truly experience an innate sexual desire towards, my entire library of males that I’d be interested in are completely and 100% fictional, due to things like anime art, which by design makes everything that much more enticing.

It’s still funny to me as I’m adjusting to this new ideology in my head, especially when it’s so specific. I’ve gone out of my way to try and find a real-life connection to this desire and so far while there are a couple that can get my attention, it’s nowhere near the same level that I got to when I really opened up to these feelings when I found anime art from artists like Mazjojo and Zamius (another article, click here!), who really made it easy for me to transition in.

It’s easy to say this is the one that will have a lot more room to expand upon, so who knows, maybe a year from now it’ll be easier for me to find a real-life connection.

It’s so crazy to me to look back on how specific my sexual desires were when I was younger. But then again, it doesn’t seem so surprising now when I’ve had essentially another 15 years to really open my mind to newer things and 15 years to discover things I never thought I’d be interested in. Ever.

What I hope to gain from writing this article, is that for the many of you that may be going through a huge change in your life as well, it’s something to look at and understand that it’s not just you. Now I’m not saying this solely for people making a transition into being bisexual or gay altogether, it’s for the biggest change and the smallest change. It’s not abnormal to think that it’s strange how one can change their opinions on anything, hell I did for a little while through all of this. I mean come on, I went from liking a specific body type, age range and a couple different races, to be open to pretty much every race, a much wider age range, more lee-way on body types and of course, a completely different gender! How could I not think it’s strange to make that leap?

But in the end, it’s just something that comes with getting older. You have more time under your belt, more experience, you’ve had the opportunity to find and interact with so many more people and by doing so, you’ve allowed your brain to expand its already massive library of knowledge. With more information, you make more decisions. When you make more decisions, you will inevitably tip the scales in one direction or another. With age, some get even more specific, but others also become more open to anything and everything. It’s not abnormal, in fact it’s the most normal thing you can do as a human, to open up more and more as you learn and experience more.

Besides, why not give yourself more sexual options? If you’re single, it’s just that many more opportunities to bed someone, y’know?

The Curious Case of My Bisexuality

I’ve casually mentioned it a couple of times in various articles I’ve posted on the site that pertain to sexuality. Whether it’s my fight to not get sexual content censored, rather have all forms of media include “fanservice” of both men and women in their content, whether it’s my comments about people “announcing” their sexuality to the world and how it’s not newsworthy, nor does it define you as a person, whether it’s any other post that I’ve talked about that carries a sexual overtone to it, I’ve mentioned a “deep, dark secret” about myself that my mind is completely insignificant, but in the current society, it’s actually a big deal apparently.

So I’ll say it again and I’ll try to explain it as best I can, because the subject of this article is about the nature of my sexuality and how I’ve handled it in the past couple years.

The best way to explain my sexuality is that I am bisexual, but when it comes to men, I’ve had a lot of trouble converting that curiosity and desire into real life. It may sound strange to some reading this, but when it comes to males, I have not found a single male in my life that I’ve been sexually attracted to. The only males I’ve taken a sexual interest in are fictional and mostly within anime/manga. Now I’m not saying that there isn’t a single male in real life I’m attracted to, I have found pictures and videos of some were there is an attraction, but they’re not people I’ve seen and met in person, so to me, it’s under the same banner as a fictional character. They’re a person I’m seeing through the looking glass, they’re not real people to me, they’re characters in a way.

The transition started very slowly. I’m constantly looking for more anime art, so I’m always going through galleries full of pictures of anything and everything you can find. So it’s no surprise that I would eventually come across more feminine and androgynous looking males through these many anime galleries. At the beginning, I just ignored it, a lot of the time it wasn’t very good art either, which immediately turns me off of even the hottest anime girl ever. If the art isn’t great, I’m not interested. So over time, I started to come across a lot better quality of art drawn with more feminine-looking boys, to the point that I had to take notice. I never really considered the idea of sex with a male, so my brain was pretty much wired to only react to the female body, now all of a sudden I’m coming across these anime images of guys that pretty much look like flat-chested girls through and through.

It was initially a weird time in my head. 20+ years of the idea that since I had a mother and a father in the house, it must be normal and correct to only pursue the opposite sex, so for me as a boy, I should only be interested in girls. I certainly went that route all the way through puberty, not once did I ever consider the idea of gay sex, hell it’s even possible that during my entire time in high school I never even heard of the term, as my high school years were just before the explosion of LGBT culture. Now I knew of lesbians because as a teenager, of course you’re watching porn even though you’re not 18 yet, but my brain never put together the idea that if two women could have sex together, so could two guys. In my skewed views at that point, I was just watching lesbian porn cause it was more girls and I wasn’t having to stare at some guy’s junk!

So when I started finding these pictures of feminine male anime characters, at 27 years old it really messes with you, trying to change years of opinions, thoughts, perceptions, all that shit. But it helped that I started off with characters that I could have just as easily perceived as being girls. So long as the pants were still on, or they had their backs facing the camera, I didn’t know any different, right? They looked like girls, but they were guys, it was still a little confusing in my brain, but I was finding a way to accept the sudden influx of new thoughts, opinions and perceptions that were flooding through my head.

Hitting puberty at 12 years old and 15 years later I was having new sexual thoughts. Granted, it was held in a very specific light, keeping the characters I was daydreaming about still looking quite feminine, perhaps my brain trying to convince myself that I was still more interested in females and to stick down that path. When you’re first having these kinds of thoughts, you instinctively try to fight it. It’s like anything in life when a major change takes place, you try to avoid it, ignore it, it’s something new and different, you initially try to push it away because you’re so used to the status quo, the things you know and know well.

What ultimately changed me over completely to the side was a specific artist. He goes by Mazjojo and is the founder of BlackMonkey Pro which does a ton of yaoi art. It was his specific stuff that really made me take an interest in “100% male” characters, guys that are undeniably male, there’s no gray area with them being feminine or anything, they’re without a shadow of a doubt a boy. For reference, here (WARNING: NSFW!) is a picture of Gray from Fairy Tail, a character I had zero interest in, but upon finding this image, my attention is suddenly directed towards the guy. I had no interest in guys, especially bigger, more muscular men, but Mazjojo’s stuff was so damn good that my mind completed changed. It took a little while, but there came a point where I couldn’t deny it anymore, I was sexually attracted to a lot of the characters Mazjojo drew. It was really weird suddenly becoming attracted to Soma from Food Wars and Sin from Guilty Gear, that’s a real interesting exchange going on in your brain when you’re suddenly attracted to characters you’ve known long before coming across art of them in very precarious positions.

So now I’ve gone in the span of a year or so from not even thinking about the idea of another guy in a sexual manner, all the way to wishing the entire cast of Free! would suddenly appear before me and line up for a long round of fun. This all took place just before I started writing on this blog, I had these thoughts at the time the page started and it took another six months thereafter to finally get to the point of being comfortable with my new sexual preferences.

I was already more than okay with talking about sex and protecting it from being censored in media, but it wasn’t until that six month mark that I came to the conclusion that I shouldn’t just be fighting the content that SJWs, feminists, parents and politicians alike are trying to censor. Instead of just focusing on the censorship of female-based ecchi content, I should also be fighting for the addition of more male-based ecchi content. Now this isn’t necessarily due to me suddenly now being attracted to men and wanting to see more boy butts, but I do believe that it plays a part in me wanting both genders to be used equally in these kinds of situations. Now being attracted to both sides really hammers it home that I should be going after equal opportunity, not because I want to see it, but because it’s the only real way to make anything exist. Both sides need to have their due, the second anything is skewed in one direction, it will be criticized and it will be slammed by those who don’t like it or agree with it.

Becoming aware of the attractiveness of both the opposite and now my own gender has really changed my stance on a lot of things. Not specifically the opinion, but I’ve more broadened a lot of the opinions I already hold. What’s helped the most is that I’ve started opening my mind to stuff I normally wouldn’t have given a shot. Now male-dominant anime get the opportunity to suck just like all the female-dominated shows do. I’m giving male characters a chance in games that offer the same-sex option, though in the case of Mass Effect: Andromeda, sorry boys, but there are too many great female choices here.

At the current moment I’m writing this, I still stay in the same weird area I’m in when it comes to my bisexuality. I still don’t know any men in real life I’d have any interest in sexually, my focus still stays particularly in anime-drawn males, those get my attention. This is large in part to anime being an art of perfection, as I’ve stated before. As it stands, I’m 29 years old, I consider myself to be bisexual, but I fully believe that when I die, I will have never experienced sex with another male. Having no attractive men around me to instill that desire does play a part in it, but the obvious major reason I suspect I’ll never cross off that line on my bucket list is that I’m in a relationship and have been for over 9 years now, which the girl I still love just as much as I did when our relationship started.

So to all the hot gay and bisexual guys out there, I’m sorry that you had a +1 on the list for you to go after and then it was immediately taken by a girl!

Hey Anime! Guys Undress and Shower Too!


I don’t make any bones about the fact that I love watching ecchi anime. Shows like Keijo!!!!!!!!Infinite Stratos and OniAi, I adore those shows and I enjoy the flood of sexy anime girls parading around in the underwear or less. I don’t think there’s any problems with that, I don’t think there’s any reason why this kind of content shouldn’t be allowed to exist and I don’t think a show is any lesser for containing that kind of content, so long as that’s not the only thing it has going for it. That’s what hentai is for.

But at the same time, there’s something about shows that contain ecchi content in them that continue to drive me crazy and that’s the absolute lack of reality checking here, in that while there always seems to be a camera perfectly placed in a girl’s bedroom as she’s changing, thus exposing her pink lacy lingerie, there’s never any point in an anime where the same happens for any of the male characters. There’s no scenes where a guy is undressing (you’re lucky to see a shirt get pulled off), no scenes where a guy is showering or bathing aside from the hot springs episode and there’s no scenes where a guy ever has his underwear exposed.

Granted, there are some anime that do it, but generally speaking (at least from memory) when this happens, it’s designed as more of a comedy bit, where the guy drops into a room with a bunch of girls and he’s naked. It’s usually not animated properly, designed in a more cheesy style and it’s not designed to be something that is okay or normal. Instead, we’re to believe that in the context of a lot of these shows, it’s okay for girls to be seen undressing, showering and more, but it’s not okay for the male character(s) to be seen in the same way.


It really does beg the question of whether at least in Japan, there’s a bit of homophobia going on, whether it’s from the studio’s point of view or whether it’s the perception that the fans/viewers don’t want to see that kind of content. If it’s the studio just deciding they don’t want there to be a focus on the male body, then you know what? I can’t really argue with that, it is their piece of work, they’re allowed to write it however they’d like and I can’t judge them for that.

But if in any case it’s the latter, the idea that the presumed male-dominant viewership doesn’t want to have a scene where the male protagonist of a harem is walking around his bedroom in his boxer-briefs, then I will certainly take issue with that. I’ve stated before that while I have found male characters in anime I find myself being attracted to, there’s just nothing in real life that convinces me that I’m anything beyond a straight male when it comes to engaging in sexual behavior. There’s a clear majority preference in my head towards women, there are very few male characters that ever elicit any sort of reaction from me, so it’s safe to say that my preference towards ecchi content in anime would lean to that of female characters.

But going back to the notion of male viewers not wanting to see ecchi content with a male character in their shows, I don’t understand what the big deal is. When it comes to ecchi content with girls, depending on the rating you might actually see 100% bare breasts. For guys however, there’s just no way without the content being classified as hentai that you would see full-on dick. At best, you’d have to deal with bare boy butt. Oh no, not boy butt! Take it away! It burns my eyes!


Honestly, the majority of ecchi content with male characters that I have seen, it’s been with characters that I have no attraction to. Take the one above here, the shot of Itsuki from Phantasy Star Online 2: The Animation. It’s a screencap I’ve used on several occasions now when it comes to this issue, a fantastic example of a scene in an anime where they don’t shy away from putting a male character under the same rules any female character would apply to when it comes to ecchi content. And in this show, I had Itsuki’s ass in the middle of my screen and I had zero attraction to the character and I didn’t get all offended or up in arms about seeing his butt on screen. Even if Aika didn’t show up not long after with her full naked body on display, this scene would’ve been fine regardless.

When it really comes to male nudity especially in anime, the only way it really throws me off, is due to the lack of that kind of content. It’s something you rarely see unless you’re actively searching for shows that are more geared to fans of yaoi anime, or anime that has a male-dominant cast, thus upping the chances of it being an anime featuring half-naked anime boys. When I’m thrown off seeing a scene like Itsuki in the hot spring, it’s not because I’m squeamish about seeing male nudity, it’s because with all the shows that I watch, guys are just never shown in that sort of context.

And it’s strange because well let’s be honest here, guys do the same things girls do in their daily lives. We also change our clothes, we also wear underwear and sometimes walk around the house in just that. We shower or bathe daily, we go to gym class in high school and change out of our normal clothes and into our gym clothes. Everything that we see girls doing in your average anime, guys do as well. The difference is that the writers, producers, whoever the fuck makes the call, they don’t ever insert a scene where a guy is shown in the same way. It’s like we’re left to assume that guys just magically change clothes, they stay clean all the time and don’t need to ever take care of their personal hygiene.


For a medium that is extremely unrealistic, there seems to be quite a lot of realism when it comes to the perception of men. What’s that, you ask? Well generally speaking, the average person in society just doesn’t talk about the male body. They don’t want to talk about it, they don’t want to see it, they don’t want to know it even exists. The only places we seem to be truly okay with guys taking their shirts off and wearing a little less than pants on, is at the pool or the beach. Now you’re probably thinking about other places as well, like the gym or at crazy college parties. The thing is that with those specific places, there’s circumstances behind the acceptance. At college parties, when the majority of people are drunk off their ass, you accept a lot more because your brain isn’t running at full capacity, so you tend to forget a few of the things you normally pay attention to. It’s like the classic moment you see in films and such, when two girls who claim to be straight get super drunk and kiss each other.

But the biggest circumstance when it comes to guys being “allowed” or “accepted” to wear less clothing in public aside from places like pools and beaches where it’s socially acceptable to do so, is that if you’re a hot guy. In anime, every girl under the sun gets shown in her underwear, no matter how big or small they are, though obviously it’s a rarity for an extremely obese woman to be in an anime unless she’s a comedy character, but that’s a conversation for another day. When it comes to male characters, is the normal looking nerdy guy ever shirtless? Nine times out of ten, it’s strictly the handsome boys who’ve got chiseled abs and are super athletic who get that luxury of being allowed to take their shirts off. In our society, we’re finally starting to push for plus-sized models with women, trying to convince everyone that all women are beautiful. But when it comes to guys, are we relaying that message? Because as far as I see it, we’re still in an age where if you want to be a male model, you gotta have a rockin’ body! There’s no plus-sized male models, at least not that we’re openly told about and having it shoved down our throats that they exist and it’s okay.


In anime, only three types of guys really get the proper ecchi treatment:

  1. The more normal-looking guys at first, but upon shirts coming off they have an athletic build. Because of course every protagonist has to look like he works out, no matter how lazy he is.
  2. The extremely muscular guys who have muscles on muscles. For some reason a lot of them seem to have “bubble butts” as well. It’s kinda weird…
  3. The very feminine-looking guys, the ones who could pass as a girl in the right light, unless they’re already dressing as girls to fool you, aka a “trap”. These are the rare cases where they’re usually designed as comedy characters, yet when ecchi moments come up, they’re still animated like hot girls, rather than the usual male ecchi moment, where it’s more comically designed.

As a guy who is relatively thin, I’m a slender build, 5’11”, just over 150 pounds, it’s kind of annoying to think that even characters who have what looks to be my build or very similar, they end up having abs and look like a million bucks regardless. Granted, I accept it because generally speaking the majority of anime characters are designed to be perfect, but it’s a little ridiculous when both male and female characters are portrayed as the laziest people on the planet, eat terribly and yet they still retain a model-like frame. I want some of this anime magic for my body, man!

Which makes it even more frustrating to think that the majority of anime guys are designed to be male models and they still don’t get shown off anywhere close to the same way all female characters in anime are.


So in the end, if this kind of stuff bothers you, I mean…wow! To think that a fictional male character in their underwear grosses you out that much, there’s definitely some deep-rooted stuff going on there. Because none of the pictures I’ve thrown into this article bother me in the slightest, I don’t feel like anything wrong has taken place by talking about this topic, nor from searching through image galleries to find all these pictures. Oh! By the way, also along with all these pictures I’ve posted, none of them are characters that I’m attracted to in any way whatsoever, these are literally just random pieces of artwork I’ve pulled specifically for this topic. I can admit that all the boys pictured in this article are good-looking, but that’s not necessarily indicative of me being attracted to them. The same goes for women, there are plenty of cases where I can see a girl, think she’s pretty, but not necessarily think I want to bed her. You can look at a person and think they’re good-looking without wanting to fuck them, folks! It’s a thing, it happens.

We need to move away from this notion as guys that if you’re straight, it’s weird or wrong to think another guy is good-looking. Girls all the time who are straight will talk about other girls, especially amongst their friends when they look pretty in an outfit they’re wearing and all that jazz. Guys just don’t do that and while I’m not saying we need a cultural and/or social shift where guys just start complimenting each other, I think at the very least we need to stop feeling like it’s a bad thing if we do and judge another guy if he does that.

And honestly, I think fictional material is a great way to start that, especially anime. Because like I’ve said before, anime is a medium of perfection, it’s where characters go to be sculpted like gods. And to use a cast of perfect male anime characters to slowly help other guys accept that yes, we can and do look good with a few articles of clothing off, not to mention by seeing other guys in that light, we can show that we’re not going to just suddenly to turn gay and have a sudden desire to suck a dick just because we see another guy in his underwear.

Because I’ve heard guys in real life talk like that’s a thing…and that’s absolutely fucking ridiculous.


It’s just a butt guys, you’ll be fine.

Gone Home Is My Favourite Story In A Video Game


I love a good story. It’s what drives me to keep playing most of the games I get into. Since I was a kid, RPGs were always a big part of my gaming and what sells most RPG games? Story. However while there are a lot of great games I could point out for having great stories that are RPG games, like Final Fantasy VI, Chrono Trigger, Mass Effect 2, Persona 4, oddly enough, the game that in my mind has the best overall story out of any game I’ve ever played is not an RPG.

Hell, it’s not even a lengthy game, at best it’s a two-hour experience.

But the interactive story game from The Fullbright Company, Gone Home, it has in my opinion the best overall story in a game I’ve ever played.



A lot of it admittedly has to do with the fact that yes, it’s a two-hour game. It’s really easy to have a strong, cohesive story when you only have a two-hour game to tell it. A two-hour story in gaming is like a television episode, just enough time to get you settled in, care about the characters involved and give you a twist to finish things off. Gone Home does this in spades.

It starts off so well, giving you the idea that maybe, just maybe you’re in store for another horror game. The artwork for the game makes it look like your standard horror indie title. Hell, the opening scene is you outside in the rain and pretty much all the lights are off in your character’s family home. So you perceive that what you’re about to play is going to soon result in a jump scare here and there, but in fact other than scaring yourself, there’s nothing to fear at all.


In Gone Home, you play the role of Kaitlin Greenbriar, the eldest daughter of a family of four. In the game however, the character you control has no value to the story, you might as well just be playing anyone who just walked into a house. The story is really about your younger sister, 18 year-old Samantha.

As you start to explore the house and piece together what happened before you arrived, you start to learn about Sam’s extraordinary journey since you’d left the house. Being a teenager of course, Sam has changed in many ways, most notably her personality. Through the meeting of a girl named Lonnie, Sam begins her change from what at first was likely your standard “nice, pretty 90s girl”, the kind of girl who reads girly magazines and dreams out going on a date with a hot boy, to becoming a far more rebellious “riot grrrl” kind of personality. For those unfamiliar with the riot grrrl movement, it was an underground punk rock scene that is largely associated as a part of third-wave feminism in the early 1990s. Bands associate with this movement are Bikini Kill, which some may recognize as they were in the Harmonix Rock Band games, as well as groups like Bratmobile and Heavens to Betsy, who both happen to have their music featured in the game.

What really opens the story up though comes around the third-the-way through mark of the game when it starts to become obvious that Sam and Lonnie are looking at each other as more than just friends. Lonnie is a major part of Sam’s change, making her feel wanted, feel free, feel like she has something to look forward to in life. By the halfway mark of the game, they’ve shared their first kiss, which is one of my favourite moments in terms of the voice acting. Sarah Grayson does such a fantastic job voice acting Sam as she monologues us through her story and listening to her tell us about her first kiss and she starts giggling uncontrollably, it’s such a realistic representation and because it comes off as such, you just get so caught up in what’s going on.


The second half of the game is a mixture of really heartwarming and really heartbreaking. As one would expect from a family in the 90s, the revelation that their daughter is a lesbian or at the very least a bisexual whose current interest is on the gay side of things, Sam’s parents are not happy about this one bit and respond to it in the worst possible way. Instead of what a sane person should do, like y’know…understand and be happy for their daughter because she found someone she truly loves being with, her parents completely deny the fact that she’s into other girls and forbid her from ever seeing Lonnie again.

So naturally, you tell a teenage girl not to do something, what’s she going to do? She and Lonnie are so close, you’re not stopping that. However after we think everything’s going to be fine, Lonnie is going to be sent off for military service as she’s a member of the Junior Reserve Officers’ Training Corps (JROTC). So now Sam is extremely distraught as she feels after feeling so alone for such a long time, she finally found someone she could be around and she fell in love with that person and now that very person is going to leave her alone again.

But this isn’t a Japanese game, so there’s a guaranteed happy ending. After my heartstrings were tugged left and right, Lonnie does indeed get on a bus and head out for service, but she changes her mind halfway and gets off in Salem (the game takes place in Oregon). This is another example of the game doing such a good job of making you think something’s happening that’s the polar opposite in the end. Because at the beginning of the game, you can check the answering machine and there’s a couple messages where a girl is crying and asking for Sam. It comes off initially like something terrifying is happening to this girl, but in actuality it’s Lonnie in the rain out in Salem crying for Sam to come and get her, because it took several phone calls before Sam finally answered the phone (because it’s the 90s, no cell phones here).

So in the end, the note Sam leaves you on the door ends up being Sam saying goodbye for a while as she has left the family home to go to Salem, get Lonnie and find a way to live together without anyone telling them otherwise.


In two hours, the story was enthralling, entertaining and carrying a heavy message, one that no doubtedly is an accurate representation of what many homosexual couples faced in the 90s when LGBT rights and acceptance were nowhere near where they are today. The story is very light-hearted and then gets really tough at times to listen to. But what really carries the story, like I said before, is Sarah Grayson’s perfect voice acting of Sam. What she adds to the story is so much, she makes Sam such a likable character, she makes every twist and turn, every tough moment, every happy moment, she makes them mean so much more.

I’d say go out and play the game, but I’m assuming you wouldn’t have gone this far without playing the game. Though if you read all the spoilers without playing Gone Home, I’d still suggest picking it up when it’s on the cheap, either on console or PC. It’s such a nice escape from the usual gameplay-intensive games that require your full attention. Gone Home is just a nice, relaxing interactive story that at times will your heart in its hands.

Saturday Morning Rant: Who Cares About Your Sexuality?!


First off, let me say that I have absolutely no problem with anyone’s sexual preference. Whether you’re straight, gay, lesbian, bisexual, whatever sexual preference you may have, I am more than okay with it. It is your own personal preference, it is none of my business to tell you otherwise, make a fuss about it and most of all, care about it.

Because at the end of the day, that’s your personal preference. And as far as I’m concerned, since it has nothing to do with me, I could care less what your preference is. Because it’s none of my business.

That’s the reason for the title of this week’s Saturday Morning Rant. “Who Cares About Your Sexuality?!” is not meant to say anything of hatred towards anyone based on their sexual preference. It’s a phrase meant to say that in reality, we shouldn’t be judgmental about others’ sexuality, which is par for the course, however I have an addition to the other side of the spectrum on this too. By saying “Who cares about your sexuality?!”, I also mean that I don’t want nor need to hear about your sexual preferences, because unless you are the person I’m trying to create a relationship with, your sexuality is unimportant and inconsequential to me. It’s meaningless to me, it doesn’t identify you in terms of your personality, your beliefs, your ideals, it just tells me who you want to sleep with and I could care less about that.


Again, I have nothing against gays, lesbians, bisexuals, all that jazz. Unfortunately in this world in its current state, there have to be protests to try and have people understand that not only does the LGBT community exist, but at some point we’re all going to have to accept that. At the same time, I do think it’s gotten a bit ridiculous when it comes to people, famous and not, going out of their way to announce to the world…who they prefer to fuck. People today look at their sexuality as what identifies them and I honestly think that’s wrong. Not because your sexuality isn’t a part of who you are specifically, but it’s not the central key identifier to you as a person. As far as I see it, who you’re attracted to isn’t what describes you as a person, because your sexuality to me is a normal part of being a human being. Rather, it’s your personality and your beliefs and ideals that truly make you the person you are.

I don’t think my sexuality defines me at all. You know what? I might as well explain the complications of my own sexuality while I’m at it too. The best way I can say it, is that I’m straight in real life, but fictional material has made me at least bi-curious. I have not been attracted to a real-life male human being, but there are anime and video game characters that I have seen and thought “Huh…I might try that.”. That’s my sexuality, but I don’t think that carries any weight to how I am, in terms of my personality. Instead, I think it’s my happy, talkative, counter-cultural personality that describes me far better than the company I like to keep in my bedroom. I don’t feel like my personality would change if I just flipped a switch and was only into guys, or both, or whatever I may be into.

It’ll take a long time before the world adjusts but believe me, one day a person’s sexuality will be considered no more of a descriptor of a person’s personality than their eye colour. Just like one day, the colour of a person’s skin won’t be used as a descriptor of a person’s personality. Because in my honest opinion, whatever we’re into sexually doesn’t give anyone much insight into the kind of person we are. We laugh, we cry, we get angry, we get excited, we all express and experience all these emotions regardless of being into men, women, or both.

And one day, the rest of the idiots who go out of their way to oppress and harm people because of their sexuality will figure that out to. Or die out, whichever comes first.

Character Spotlight: Naoto Shirogane


Persona 4 does so many things that very few games would ever dare to even stand remotely close to. We saw through Kanji’s struggles with his sexuality, that alone is something that in 2008 pretty much no one would touch with a 50-foot pole. We also took a look at Rise dealing with the issue of being looked at lustfully not only because of her beautiful petite body, but because of her status as an idol, so it delved into the celebrity life of a young teenage girl idolized both by girls and by men who would look at her for other reasons. There are tons of interesting storylines going on throughout the game that are large in part fueled by the inner thoughts and struggles that many teenagers and young adults go through.

My personal favourite though, is that of Naoto Shirogane.


When we’re first introduced to Naoto, we’re left believing that he’s a young upcoming detective making his way up the ranks, earning the moniker of the “Detective Prince” by his peers. He proves his chops pretty quick when he identifies Kanji as the next victim of the Midnight Channel, long before the Investigation Team even figure this out as well from seeing him on TV at night. Now here’s the only thing that sucked about the beginning with Naoto: I can call gender swaps in any Japanese media almost immediately, I’ve seen so many through games and anime throughout my life, even more so now with the sheer amount of anime I consume weekly nowadays. So just from hearing Naoto’s voice for the first time, even though the voice itself does have a hint of masculinity in the sound and tones of the voice, it still immediately tripped my “THIS IS A GIRL!” alarm in my head. So unfortunately for me, the surprise was ruined before her dungeon revealed the truth.

However, the story behind this truth was still very engaging and interesting. Essentially, even though Naoto was the ace detective she was and constantly proved herself time and time again, she was never being taken seriously for multiple reasons. One of course was that she was very young, only 15 years old when first introduced in the game, so naturally a bunch of weathered old police officers and detectives could never believe nor accept that a teenager was doing a better job than them. It’s a common occurrence so that wasn’t surprising. The other glaringly huge reason was of course that she was female. And thus begins the conversation of gender equality in the workplace. Now it’s implied that she always hid her gender from the police force because she thought they would never take her seriously as a woman and that’s not all that surprising. Even today in 2016, the majority of police officers you see are male, it’s still an occupation that is dominated by men. So both those reasons caused the creation of really split personalities with Naoto, one that was the stoic male Detective Prince and this other feminine and very shy Naoto that was slowly fading away due to how little time she was allowed to come out, thus leading to a very uncomfortable situation that her dungeon represented.


Initially when you enter the dungeon, you hear the ramblings of Naoto’s conscience stating that “he” will be undertaking a “body-altering operation”. Now if you hadn’t figured out the secret yet, this was probably a confusing thought, what could this young boy possibly want to alter? It’s not until you reach the very end where you learn that Naoto is indeed actually a female and that body-altering operation is actually meant to be a sex change, the inner-workings of a distraught Naoto wanting to get away from the “shackles” preventing her from getting past the glass ceiling she perceived to be in place at her line of work.

As the game progresses further, Naoto eventually comes to terms with how she was born and accepts that changing how she looks would never change the person she is inside, especially when really the sole reason for why she wanted to change her gender was because of her line of work. We don’t really see her lamenting over her gender for anything else, so we’re left to believe that if she wasn’t a detective she likely wouldn’t have minded her situation much, if at all. By the end of the game as well, she begins to be a little more open with how she actually looks and dresses just a bit more feminine to reflect that, though it’s not like she starts wearing low-cut tops and short shorts, she essentially just doesn’t go out of her way to hide the one massive giveaway of her true gender.


Of course, because Japan and anime-drawn material is always funny like this, Naoto of all the girls in the entire game has to be the one with the biggest breasts of them all, something that immediately grabs the attention of all the girls the first time they get a good look at her. It’s also when she’s looking her most feminine, particularly when she’s in situations where her body is exposed or she’s to be dressed in clothes that would hide very little of her absolutely stunning frame that she completely drops that mature detective attitude of hers and employs a much shyer, feminine demeanor. When the Swimsuit Contest comes to Yasogami High and Rise, Yukiko and Chie all get roped in, Naoto can’t quite bring herself to wear a bikini in public. In the animation we get a far better hint of what that looks like though and boy is that little bit more than enough to make you believe that not only is Naoto female, but she is far prettier than you could’ve ever imagined. And just to finish off the more feminine side of Naoto, if you really want to bring that side of her out, put her into a situation where she can actually be scared of something, when she’s in total fear, her masculine tone completely drops, showing us that she can only keep up that charade when she’s fully composed. Otherwise, she’s a girl you just wanna hug, as the ski trip in Persona 4: Golden showed me.


I’m going to make no bones about it, I’m at the time of writing this article, two weeks ahead on my “Waifu, Friend with Benefits or One-Night Stand?” articles in terms of the three girls being judged. If Naoto ever hits a weekly article through the randomizer, she’ll be an automatic Waifu for me. While Chie is my current #1 pick in not only Persona 4, but all Shin Megami Tensei games, she and Naoto are constantly flipping between #1 and #2. Naoto is a tremendous character, one you cannot help but root for. Her story is extremely challenging as a storyline because so few would dare to take on the issue of gender identity and transsexuals.

And just to top all that off, she’s the best of all worlds in terms of attraction. If you’re attracted to feminine looking males, Naoto can fit that bill. If you’re attracted to tomboys, Naoto can fit that bill. If you’re attracted to the male that’s actually a female character, she obviously fits that bill. And if you’re attracted to just beautiful women, Naoto still fits that bill. She’s not a character that you can fit in a single box, she has potential is so many different areas. She’s strong, yet can be weak. She’s confident, yet can be easily embarrassed and shy. She’s cold, yet can be loving. She’s an incredible woman and one of my favourite female characters in terms of how she’s written.

Though I will admit, Naoto in the high-cut armor costume looks way off on her.


#SocietyIsStupid – Tanktops Are Offensive!!!


So apparently a gym in Ottawa decided to ask this woman (Jenna Vecchio) pictured above to cover up her breasts as other customers were complaining about her attire. She’s wearing in the picture what she wore to the gym at the time. Now clearly with my vast knowledge of anime, video games and other awfully sexist and misogynistic content, I’m an expert with cleavage.

And I gotta tell ya…she looks as uncomfortable looking as a Tempur-Pedic mattress.

What the flying fuck is so uncomfortable about her? She’s wearing an actually pretty conservative sports tanktop. There’s almost no cleavage at all. So it’s blatantly obvious that one of two things happened here:

  1. A couple old or overweight or smaller (or any combination of the three) women saw her, looked at her bust size and freaked out because how dare she look so beautiful. Cause I gotta say, she looks fantastic and badass as fuck with the tattoos.
  2. A mixture of easily triggered women and SJW men saw her and after one women got jealous of this women, the men white knighted with her.

I imagine it’s more the first than the second, but honestly it really pisses me off to read that some people out there actually looked at Jenna and thought “Ugh! That’s deplorable! How dare she show herself off like that around us!”. This sounds like some real posh bullshit going on here, some holier-than-thou kind of crap.

I want to fault the gym for this too, but I really can’t, after all if a few customers are complaining about one customer, you side with the few and lose the least amount of business possible. But at the very least they should’ve had the decency to say “Look, we don’t see any problems, but we are getting complaints so we have to treat them accordingly.” to her. However it does read like they sided with the complaints as well and if that is the case, then fuck them too.

There is not a goddamn thing wrong with how Jenna looked and if that’s really a problem to some people, do yourselves and the rest of the world a favour and lock yourself in your house and never go out into public again. We’d be a far better place without your idiotic shit.

Blogging 101, Day Four: Identify Your Audience‏


So this’ll be a fun article to write. Today’s assignment is simple: Publish a post you’d like your ideal audience member to read, and include a new-to-you element in it.

Now as for the new-to-you element, I’ve pretty much posted everything I’d actually post in an article here, whether images, videos, etc. so in terms of that half of the assignment, I’m fresh out of ideas. I could embed a Tweet, but I’d only do that if it was pertinent to the article. I’d embed a Pinterest element, but that site can suck it for all I care! So yeah, in terms of elements, nothing out of the ordinary here. However, if I’m to write an article for my ideal audience member, there’s really only one thing I can think of that defines the type of readers I’m looking to attract.

And I anticipate a few people who read this and don’t fall into that demographic might be a tad bit offended or weirded out, because the subject is question is…

Mai from Myriad Colors Phantom World
Mai from Myriad Colors Phantom World

Boobs! Specifically the stupidly large breasts that a ton of anime characters have.

Now this is a personal preference, so I have no problems with those who enjoy breasts that fall into a size D or bigger. But honestly, when it comes to bust sizes, I can’t get myself too into the idea of breasts that large. I’ve always had a preference for Cs and under, two of my three girlfriends in life have been smaller than Bs, my current girlfriend is pretty much flat-chested. For me personally and again this will weird some people out, I prefer a bust size that I can cup with my entire hand, rather than only grabbing a percentage. I’m also far more into butts than boobs anyways, so there’s the perverted reasons out of the way.

In terms of the way they’re used, particularly in anime since that’s the topic at hand here, generally speaking the characters who have the largest breasts seem to have the least amount of personality and/or intelligence. Whether the gigantic breasted woman is either dumb as a rock, or as upbeat as a slow dance track, the majority of anime girls that fall into this group are completely uninteresting to me. Characters like Mai (pictured above) and Hestia from Is It Wrong To Try To Pick Up A Girl In A Dungeon come to mind. They’re designed to be eye candy and generally speaking they’re either boring as hell or annoying as fuck.

And then there’s the extreme cases of oversized breasts.

Cattleya from Queen's Blade
Cattleya from Queen’s Blade

Cases like Cattleya and Shizuka from Highschool of the Dead are cases where their breast sizes are just way too large. It’s to the point that they’re literally put on camera for the most part for jiggle scenes where the slightest movement triggers a ripple effect causing a multi-second jiggle fest intended solely for the viewers. Sometimes it’s even used as comedy, in the case of Shizuka pretty much using Alice as a placeholder for her breasts, as seen here.

Now this is not meant to shame or even worse, slut shame girls who do have large breasts in real life. My real problem with anime girls who are given the giant rack treatment are generally written to be just that, a giant pair of tits bouncing around for the viewers’ enjoyment. I wouldn’t have cared less how big Shizuka’s breasts were if she was a smart, strong woman capable of handling herself during the zombie apocalypse. But because she was a mostly dunce cap toting woman who somehow has medical skills, she falls into the category of pure eye candy and while I like watching sexy anime girls as much as the next guy, the ones who have staying power are sexy AND interesting.

Irisdina from Schwarzesmarken & Misaki from AOKANA: Four Rhythm Across The Blue
Irisdina from Schwarzesmarken & Misaki from AOKANA: Four Rhythm Across The Blue

Here’s two examples from this current anime season that fall into the category of girls with larger breasts that are still interesting. Irisdina from Schwarzesmarken has an unmistakably large bust, but unless you are a complete pervert, you don’t really notice the majority of the anime. She’s a goddamn badass woman who commands an task force of pilot mechs in a war against an alien race in the BETA. There are moments that draw slight attention to her chest, but as soon as she’s back to her commanding officer status, there’s no big-breasted bombshell moniker attached to her. Misaki is far different, but still accomplishes to draw attention to her character, rather than her bust, which is an accomplishment in itself considering the anime she’s in is far more ecchi than Schwarzesmarken. She has a very unique personality, super sleepy in the morning, super energized in the afternoon. She likes to add cat-puns in her words, often ending sentences with a ‘Nyah’ in there. And again, even though she’s been seen naked before in the anime she’s from, you still don’t immediately put her in the eye candy group, as again she’s unique, but also holds her own in the anime’s central plot, the Flying Circus sport that’s played. So far she’s handily beaten her competition, so she’s not just the sexy one that’s just there to distract people or take the losses.

Kurumu Kurono from Rosario + Vampire
Kurumu Kurono from Rosario + Vampire

Honestly, I don’t have a huge problem (pun intended) with big breasted anime girls, just when they’re written poorly. I’ve said it before, you can make a girl in an anime or a video game as sexy as you want, but if you give her zero personality and essentially turn her into eye candy, you’ve failed to make her anything except a sex doll. There a ton of great large-chested girls in anime, such as Seras Victoria from Hellsing and Saya Takagi from Highschool of the Dead. They have a personality and there’s something about them that’s interesting beyond more than just their bodies. And the same goes for real life, I couldn’t care less how big a girl’s bust is, so long as she’s cool to hang around. I don’t think I’d be interested in a relationship because of my preferences however, but I can always make more friends, y’know?

But if you’re just defined by your body and nothing else, you’re not interesting to me and the same goes for fictional characters. If she’s just tits and ass, that’s all I’ll remember her for, tits and ass. The girls sitting at the top of my all-time list aren’t even close to being the hottest girls I’ve seen in anime, but they’re damn sure the most interesting. Why? Cause their character is more than just jumping up and down.

Sometimes they jump side to side too.